30 December 2009


i feel something unpleasant right now.....

something uneasy has blown into my heart as i went through those...........huh.

why should i keep on thinking about it??

why should i feel like this???

this is not like me....!!!


i am not me.

for the time being.

do i have to go through this again?

i hope not.

i hate being like this.

i hate it.


hate for losing some parts of myself.

can somebody fix them for me again?

i guess not.

and i am sure that they cannot.

because they don't know.

the reason why i posted this.

me too.

don't know why should i posted this nonsense piece of myself.


to lose is to get something better.


before we get better.

we have to go through the most painful healing process.

and that process is to be followed by the strongest inner self of mine
which i can't detect where it is really situated.


never take this post as a serious thing.

this is just a nonsense side of a girl.



no name.

till then.

see you in the next post.


p/s: live your life to the max...huu

whatever happens,

even if something happened not as what you want,
just be grateful.
The Almighty has served you with something that is much better than
what you had lose.
or what you did not get.
there is,
too long journey for us to go through
and that is reason we are here in this world.
to deal with obstacles to be a person that is better,
and happier.
regardless of what happens in life.

28 December 2009

:: my dear.my honey.my darling.my buddy ::

.: nurul hidayah binti juhari :.
(the cutest ever that i've ever had as my friend)

.: hanisah binti nasoha :.
(my forever buddy)

.: noor aishah binti mohd ikhwan :.
(even though i met you just now)

.: nurul ainul hafizah binti shmuri :.

.: siti rugayah binti subandi :.
(my yoyo!!)

.: sharmillia nadia binti noordin :.

.: mohd sobri bin amat bokri :.

.: norina shazreen binti hasbulah :.

.: abang mohamad arshad bin abang abdul salam :.

.: nurazela binti ngadiman :.

.: norhubaizura binti ahmad :.

.: norliana binti mislan :.

.: hawa binti kosnin :.

.: nabihah huda binti ibrahim :.

.: mohd solihin bin robian :.

.: nur azeeda binti basri :.

.: normah binti sanusi :.

.: nura adila binti muhd nasir :.

.: nurul aida binti zainal abidin :.

.: nur wahidah binti basri :.

.: salfika binti razak :.

.: julaiana binti abdullah :.

.: nasirudin bin muharam :.

.: mohd faiz bin baharuddin :.

.: mohd zaimi bin jamat :.

.: mohd adib faizal bin azhar :.

.: nasruddin bin basar :.

.: mohd asrul affendi bin harun :.

.: hanis bin nor mohamed zailani :.

.: muhammad najmuddin bin mohd nan :.

.: mohd ariff rafaie bin shamsuddin :.

.: mohd nor bin md zin :.

.: mohd syafiq :.

.: shahrilmusa bin shahrulzaman :.

:: aku




miss you guys to the max!!!

~~ex-students of 5 arif 2008, smk tun ismail~~
(most of them)

~~if only i could turn back the time....
all i ever wanted is to be back together with you all...:))))

although we are no longer seeing each other as much as the back days....
i hope that you still, and always do the best in everything...:))

whatever happens, just keep going..
ignore what others are talking about when you know that you are in the right track.
final three words for you guys:


no thing~~

menyesal~~ressa herlambang

semula ku tak yakin

kau lakukan ini padaku

meski di hati merasa

kau berubah saat kau mengenal dia

bila cinta tak lagi untukku

bila hati tak lagi padaku

mengapa harus dia yang merebut


bila aku tak baik untukmu

dan bila dia bahagia dirimu

aku kan pergi

meski hati tak akan rela

terkadang ku menyesal

mengapa ku kenalkan dia


***i love it..:)

OST tasbih cinta..

currently shown in tv3.

~this song gives her something~

kekura, you know you can always lean on me whenever it is, right?:)

27 December 2009

my merlin-my colin morgan:)

lady morgana...
the one that merlin is having a crush on..hehe
merlin..how could you betray our love??
i am so disappointed with you...huuhaha
he is merlin's backbone..
without him, only god knows what will happen to merlin..
gaius did help merlin a lot..especially to ensure that merlin's gift from god
is carefully kept and will remain a secret..

these are the candid photos of merlin and arthur..
i like..!hehe:)

starring in this series are:
arthur pendragon
uther pendragon
lady morgana

arthur pendragon that is admired by my darling kekura...hee
at times he can be a remarkable man...
but most of the times, he is annoying..huu
don't know why he loves to tease merlin a lot..
hey arthur..i'm here to back merlin up ok..

oh....how cute he is...my merlin.....:))))
he is my colin morgan too...:)

ok2 merlin...
i understand that you don't want others to know about your cuteness.huu
but i just can't stop to tell the world that you're sooooo cute!!!
p/s: don't forget to watch merlin on sundays 9.00 pm!!
till then..
may today, tomorrow and the days ahead are the best for you...:)

24 December 2009

DBP:.da bengkel penulisan~~


starting from last sunday,
i went to Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka (DBP) to take part in a workshop,
writing workshop that was organized for those who won the Hadiah Galakan Tunas Remaja.

a few days before:

20th december 2009

the journey to KL- super tiring!!huu
went there together with my teacher..pn rohaidah binti yon..
(thanks to her that she was the one who sent my short story to DBP)
checked in at institute of diplomacy and foreign research (idfr)
my roomate was a form 2 student-the youngest in the workshop-
and her father is one of the writers available in malaysia

nudra shafini.......what a nice name she has...:)

21st december 2009
the workshop began.
the first slot was conducted by the well-known poet and writer,
she used to write a short story entitled
and was included in the syllabus of Malay literature in secondary schools.
but this time she was not going to teach us about short story,
she taught us about poems: how to make a good poem, the language used and most importantly,
each and every line in the poem is meaningful.

every single moment with her was precious and unforgettable:)
she sang songs based on the poems or well-known as "mestamu"-melagukan sajak tanpa alat muzik
one quote that she loved to use throughout her slot with us was:

and we were really in to it..:)
she also taught us one "nazam":

Allah Allah Aza Wajjal Tuhan Kami
Kami Mohon Ampun Akan Dosa Kami

i really learnt a lot from her and i believe that everyone had the same feeling as mine..:)
this was the poem that i made during the slot with her..
huu...it wasn't that interesting since i'm not that good in making poems..

let me present the poem entitled:


aku mendaki
mendaki dan mendaki
serta mendaki lagi
berbekalkan semangat pertiwi
ke mercu destinasi

dalam pendakian
aku tersungkur
lantas rebah menyembah tanah
aku bangkit
aku tersungkur dan bangkit lagi
lagi dan lagi
sehingga tanpa disedari
aku telah jauh
terlalu jauh
mendaki gunung pancaroba
asyik menghirup kemanisan madu kejayaan
tanpa melupakan pahitnya hempedu kegagalan.

the slot was super fun and enjoyable..
well, most probably because of the two "great speakers" in the workshop,


(on of the youngest but wanted to be called as he is much older than others..hehe)


HELMI or well-known as EL
there, he got a new name : SOFEA

didn't want to tell why he was given that name..hehe

21st december 2009 (night)

we started our night slot with


one of the famous writers in Malaysia
the first slot that night was filled with the ice breaking session with abg saiful

22nd december 2009

the whole day was filled with the session with abg saiful
it was interesting...:)
as usual wan n el played their roles the best..hee
the session ended at 10.30 pm
right after performing solat isyak,
we were required to gather at the lobby in idfr to discuss about the performance that we were going to make the next day.

we decided to perform a sketch based on a short story made by one of us.
we chose ferrari, pierre cardin di darul taqwa as the sketch..
finished discussing and practising at about 1.30 am...huu
super sleepy....

23rd december 2009

the prize giving ceremony plus our performance..
we started practising in the morning and finished at about 11.
waiting for the performance...
luckily we did it well..
thanks to wan as he has successfully played his role in the sketch..:)
and all that involved..
everyone did give their best for the performance..
let's give a big hand to all!!!
the ceremony ended at 1.00 pm
huuu....sad to leave my friends there...
  • ketua mafia
  • nudra
  • penghulu and penghuluwati
  • khaliq
  • ainatul mardhiah
  • izzati
  • fira
  • el
  • fazli
  • izzuddin
  • aina
  • mardhiah
  • nadirah
  • syazana
  • the one who sat next to her..(sorry, i forgot your name)
anyway..this is going to be my unforgettable memory..:)

let's reunite next year!

as planned by wan and aina..:)

my very first entry~

salam and hi...
huu....it's a kind of.....dunno what to say..
but a big hello to all bloggers out there...:)
i am the new member here..
can't wait to share my feelings with you all..
i am a student in one of the teacher training institutes,
an english teacher-to-be,
have great interest in:
~my cutest-ever dollydollyphin
(it's dolphin actually :p)
~love songs
~korean hotties
~everything that i get interested in..hee
till then..
see you in the next post..
hak milik kekal dan terpelihara nurfarah wahidah.